Self-Possession

What an amazing feeling, I wake from a deep sleep with an unusual feeling of completeness, and it's surprising!  I even remember the dream I was having and how it woke me, just when I felt my most secure.  I think my subconscious knew I'd want to experience this and journal it, because by the morn I might not feel the same.  I'm not sure!  But it has happened before, so .. All I know is this dynamic of self-assurance and confidence, of feeling like I've just killed a dragon lol this is amazing!  It's as if I've gathered all the refuse of my hurts and woes and just laughed them away - left them to die of inattention, as they should.  Who could hurt me now?  Why would I allow anyone that power ever again?  The comments of my family seem ages old, and so inaffective.  How could I let simple words direct my feelings. when those same words were as negative and useless as - well, what's the most negative, useless thing I could have, I suppose it would be a belief in the metaphors and allusions of others whether they're loved by me or not!  Alluding to my hair length as holding me back somehow, why didn't I see the jealousy and just pain idiocy of that remark?  This is enlighening, no wonder I woke up!  And there's humor too, when I realize how foolish I was to allow that hurt.  I see now I'm a perfectly complete and self-possessed woman all on my own and need no confirmation except that from God, in private meditative moments of communion.  I think I know what I'll do, start my yoga classes again.  I doubt this neuropathy will make it easy but so what - right now I feel as a human newly brought to the well of self-assurance, and I'm drinking in all I can.  Good for me!