Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Daily Pain In A Different Light


Repost of July 30, 2006: I got a little "flack" for this post awhile back, can you tell me honestly how you feel about my ideas here, concerning pain? I still believe that people in pain don't always have to be in a state of suffering. Please read as much as you can, it explains how I attempt to use the energy of pain for something else. THANK you my Constant Reader!

Are you the parent of your pain?

It's a beautiful hot morning and I'm finishing my yoga breathing and stretching, to help me deal with physical pain. I know there is a group of us who live with chronic, exhaustive pain daily, and we all have our rituals and habits we perform because of what is hurting us. This includes emotional pain as well, it's just as hurtful and at times more oppressive. I want to address something about that. Energy.

Everything, every situation, every sound or thought or act is composed of energy. Our high school physics reminds us that energy cannot be destroyed, only changed. Not one single atom has come into being or died out since the birth of time and space. Only changed - mutated, reformed, refracted, revamped, refined.

I believe the state of painfulness weakens our energy sources. When we exist in pain, we create a state of energy with particular qualities. Do you ever notice when first meeting someone online who you cannot see, that they introduce themselves by listing their ailments? It soothes the human need to be assured that those listening to us know our hurtful condition - I just did it at the start of this entry. But soon a person can easily become what acts upon their bodies, they become their disability and that's sad, indeed. I know pain is energy and I cannot destroy it, but there is something I can do.

After many months of meditating on whatever expanded, evolved, almighty Power that controls this Universe, God by any name you can think of, I found that I could transform my energy of pain into the energy of non-pain, hopefully nothingness. Then I could throw it out. Period. The power of the mind over everything. It doesn't mean I am out of pain. It means I've taken steps to regain my power over it, of how I chose to live, which pain is trying to rob me of. Again, it's all energy, which can be changed - I can change how I view and maintain this anguish thereby adjusting the fullness of my life and throwing out anything that bars my way to a happier, more giving existence.

Unless I reshape what hurts me I cannot deal with it and will always be hurting, uncomfortable, unable to partake of life's bounty, unable to give of myself. So I use the incredible energy of my chronic pain to motivate me into transforming it into something I don't need, I don't want, and I mentally toss it out.

What really happens, however, is that these thoughts, which are actions, become part of the complete Universe, each molecule being sent out into the cosmos still existing as energy but in a form that doesn't fall on me. I do not own this pain, I am not it's parent.

Many of us are forced to medicate ourselves daily. We do this because we have to live, and in the most complete way we know. Chemicals work, since we are mostly made of chemicals, and the ones we take for our ailments co-exist and act in accord with our natural endorphins, or morphine, which keeps us from feeling pain from even a slight breeze. Humans are so vulnerable to their environs, but don't always think to change them. They find it simpler to accept what is given them, to adapt to it as it is. And who can blame them, it's extremely difficult to maintain a semblance of normalcy when your every nerve is screaming at you.

Have you adapted to life as it is, or do you seek to change certain parts of it that stifle you? It's so easy to medicate, relax and do only what is possible. That's acceptance, good or bad it's acceptance of a condition which impacts the way we live. Many of us work through our pain, we have jobs or children and other responsibilities. Many cannot, they have _________(fill in disease). See how it becomes who you are if you see it that way?

But whatever our condition, we have the power within us to change this energy, not adapt to it by accepting it. We can adapt in other ways that are positive, that don't make the pain energy too strong, hence making us more weakened.

Why do we bother to take our medicines if we have no care for a good life, to heal? If you're doing things to help yourself then it means you want to change your situation. So we already know we care for ourselves, we look to make a decent life possible, but we only go just so far.

When you fight against something it only exhausts you and expends wasted energy. When you try to harmonize with something, it then adapts to you, not the other way round. Why not transform unwanted states of energy into unbound molecules and send them out into the universe? It's not easy, it's not hard. It's just another way to live. YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RELIEVE YOUR PAIN, BUT YOU CAN RELIEVE YOUR SUFFERING. I believe this. I wanted you to know.

16 comments:

Gerry said...

As usual your powers of reasoning are always interesting to read. I can follow your thinking and am always drawn to one who reasons well. So saying I have read the two entries of your blog I had not yet seen and will return again when you post, because I know I will be drawn into your thinking, will see where you are going, and what you hope to accomplish. I can think of many who could benefit by reading this entry who are living in pain which constricts and binds them, and mystifies those around them about what they can do to offer them any kind of comfort or relief. People are in much need of good thinking about the problem of chronic pain, whether it is physical or mental. Gerry

ThomasLB said...

This is tangential to your point, but: I noticed long ago that if you ask a young person about themselves they tend to talk about music and art and friendships; if you as a middle age person about themselves, they tell you what their job is; if you ask an old person about themselves, they tell you what hurts.

It's interesting how people define themselves.

Big Mark 243 said...

I don't have anything really profound to say, other that I learned to 'transform' the bad into something else at an early age. In fact, I am doing so now, so I guess I wonder if it matters HOW as much as it is something that you DO?

Whatever ails me, is something of my mind ... and if you don't mind, 'it' doesn't matter, is how I do things. Works for me.

FrankandMary said...

Having worked so long in the medical field, I am used to people defining themselves to me by their pains & symptoms, but I prefer not to do that myself. When I talk about things having to do with my Dad & our journey(on my blog), I am releasing it all ~~> Out There(not that some doesn't revist, but..)but some I know who speak of pain & illness pretty much travel the exact same road & words & despair each time it is mentioned. That doesn't work for me.

I meditate every day, & while it does not solve my problems, it does clear my junk ;-)(for new junk). I never discuss at length my ailments unless I am doing it with close friends to release some of the tensions of the now(if I am currently suffering in some way). I don't hold dear my ailments or my problems, or have a mixture of pride & pique as some I've seen. I am not faulting them for this, I just do not understand how it is effective.....what it adds to the good side of the balance sheet.

Amy said...

I usually don't mention my pain and messed up business unless somebody tries to get me to play sports or dance or something. Thrn suddenly, i'm more frail than a 90 yr old... heh...

Loving Annie said...

Cathy,
to a certian extent, I believe very much in what you are saying. Mind over matter, the power of intent, breathing , meditating, choice and willpower/discipline, a willingness to cope, etc.

I say it depends on the level of pain and the duration of pain, combined with your determination to cope and ability to withstand.

I'm not going to go any further because this is an intense subject and should be talked about in person so there are not misunderstandings !

Old Knudsen said...

I believe that everyone has the right to know about my personal itching.
Christians and Wiccans deny their hunt, kill, revenge and f**k impulses and label it 'sinful' and are thus only part people giving lip service to spirituality.

I embrace all those aspects as being natural but can still be a decent person.
Pain is also natural but I don't discuss it with strangers as I don't like the natives see me bleed.

Being Ulster/Scots I'm stubborn so I don't let my chronic pain stop me from doing things, others have it worse.
I also get angry at my depression and don't give into it but see it as a thing that makes me who I am, a genius.

We need our pain, a little suffering is good for the soul we just have to learn from it without being too Catholic.

Lori said...

I agree that pain and suffering are not necessarily the same thing. And I think it's great that you can take your pain and transform it into an energy that you can use to your own good. I don't think that everyone has that ability though.

DB said...

Cathy, I appreciate this essay very much. As one who knows pain, sometimes severe sanity-threatening pain, I agree about the energy of pain. No one should ever define themselves or be defined by their illnesses. Any of it can be dealt with by thought. The cures are different and can come from different places. One has to listen. But to throw the bad energy back at the universe to deal with is a sacred right. DB

Patrick @ Caregivingly Yours said...

Wow, I am getting old. I remember both this post and the flack associated with it.

I for one am glad you have continued to always "dare to think".

Caregivingly Yours, Patrick
http://caregivinglyyours.blogspot.com/

natalie said...

great thoughts Kathy!
thank you so much! I will recommend this piece in my blog
Happy St Pats
love,natalie

singamaraja said...

Singamaraja reading your blogs

Martha said...

I believe what you talk about here 100%. I've tried to tell others the same which usually results in anger and being told I don't understand or that everyone is different. I know better because I live and use the power within myself in so many ways each and ever day. It's very hard to make anyone understand if they don't already get it.
I love your strong spirit :-)
Hugs, Martha

Diane J Standiford said...

I'm sure many will argue, but I agree with you. If you have ever sat with someone dying, well, suffering exists and some don't have time to apply your ideas. I mention my MS because I have a blog about it, but I write about MANY other parts of me and I have NEVER said I suffer from it or cancer. But I deny no one their suffering, it is a GIFT to the rest of us to help them. That is my philosophy.

Connie said...

That is one thing I haven't done..expounded on,to regail about my pains,suffering etc.I have maybe mentioned a thing or two but never set forth to seek pity,sympathy..whatever,as I know my malidies are simple compared to some..maybe even most..nonetheless that is not who I wish to be defined as--the gal with this wrong or that...if I could change the energy of one thing about me it would be the tinnitis..I know it's caused by my inner energy gone haywire and wish I could rearrange it..for one day without it would be such a blessing..pain I have learned to live with..accept as ME but I can never get away from the constant noises in my head..except for blessed sleep when it finally comes...

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