Repost of July 30, 2006: I got a little "flack" for this post awhile back, can you tell me honestly how you feel about my ideas here, concerning pain? I still believe that people in pain don't always have to be in a state of suffering. Please read as much as you can, it explains how I attempt to use the energy of pain for something else. THANK you my Constant Reader!
Are you the parent of your pain?
It's a beautiful hot morning and I'm finishing my yoga breathing and stretching, to help me deal with physical pain. I know there is a group of us who live with chronic, exhaustive pain daily, and we all have our rituals and habits we perform because of what is hurting us. This includes emotional pain as well, it's just as hurtful and at times more oppressive. I want to address something about that. Energy.
Everything, every situation, every sound or thought or act is composed of energy. Our high school physics reminds us that energy cannot be destroyed, only changed. Not one single atom has come into being or died out since the birth of time and space. Only changed - mutated, reformed, refracted, revamped, refined.
I believe the state of painfulness weakens our energy sources. When we exist in pain, we create a state of energy with particular qualities. Do you ever notice when first meeting someone online who you cannot see, that they introduce themselves by listing their ailments? It soothes the human need to be assured that those listening to us know our hurtful condition - I just did it at the start of this entry. But soon a person can easily become what acts upon their bodies, they become their disability and that's sad, indeed. I know pain is energy and I cannot destroy it, but there is something I can do.
After many months of meditating on whatever expanded, evolved, almighty Power that controls this Universe, God by any name you can think of, I found that I could transform my energy of pain into the energy of non-pain, hopefully nothingness. Then I could throw it out. Period. The power of the mind over everything. It doesn't mean I am out of pain. It means I've taken steps to regain my power over it, of how I chose to live, which pain is trying to rob me of. Again, it's all energy, which can be changed - I can change how I view and maintain this anguish thereby adjusting the fullness of my life and throwing out anything that bars my way to a happier, more giving existence.
Unless I reshape what hurts me I cannot deal with it and will always be hurting, uncomfortable, unable to partake of life's bounty, unable to give of myself. So I use the incredible energy of my chronic pain to motivate me into transforming it into something I don't need, I don't want, and I mentally toss it out.
What really happens, however, is that these thoughts, which are actions, become part of the complete Universe, each molecule being sent out into the cosmos still existing as energy but in a form that doesn't fall on me. I do not own this pain, I am not it's parent.
Many of us are forced to medicate ourselves daily. We do this because we have to live, and in the most complete way we know. Chemicals work, since we are mostly made of chemicals, and the ones we take for our ailments co-exist and act in accord with our natural endorphins, or morphine, which keeps us from feeling pain from even a slight breeze. Humans are so vulnerable to their environs, but don't always think to change them. They find it simpler to accept what is given them, to adapt to it as it is. And who can blame them, it's extremely difficult to maintain a semblance of normalcy when your every nerve is screaming at you.Have you adapted to life as it is, or do you seek to change certain parts of it that stifle you? It's so easy to medicate, relax and do only what is possible. That's acceptance, good or bad it's acceptance of a condition which impacts the way we live. Many of us work through our pain, we have jobs or children and other responsibilities. Many cannot, they have _________(fill in disease). See how it becomes who you are if you see it that way?
But whatever our condition, we have the power within us to change this energy, not adapt to it by accepting it. We can adapt in other ways that are positive, that don't make the pain energy too strong, hence making us more weakened.
Why do we bother to take our medicines if we have no care for a good life, to heal? If you're doing things to help yourself then it means you want to change your situation. So we already know we care for ourselves, we look to make a decent life possible, but we only go just so far.
When you fight against something it only exhausts you and expends wasted energy. When you try to harmonize with something, it then adapts to you, not the other way round. Why not transform unwanted states of energy into unbound molecules and send them out into the universe? It's not easy, it's not hard. It's just another way to live. YOU MAY NOT BE ABLE TO RELIEVE YOUR PAIN, BUT YOU CAN RELIEVE YOUR SUFFERING. I believe this. I wanted you to know.