Friday, June 15, 2007

The Thief Has Returned

I come to these pages in shock.  Just as things felt better again, the MINDLESS THIEF OF JOY called CANCER has struck again, only this time it has slammed hard and deep into the delicate brain of my sister-in-law PENNY.  She is married for life to the brother of my heart, Christopher.  He cannot survive without her.  I cannot without him.

Brain tumor.  Pituitary gland.  Now it begins again, the "hurry up and wait" world of medicine, where they will bring my sweet PENNY to the edge of death with toxic radiation to kill those horrid cells, hoping against hope they get them all.  The chemical therapy, chemo, which will pour these countless compounds into her dear body, draining her strength to fight as she does so well for others in need.

What IS this horror, this CRUEL COLD MINDLESS THIEF that keeps robbing me of all that is precious in my life?  

I can only pray.  So that's what my job is, and I cannot stop, I will not stop, never, not ever.  PENNY MUST BE 100% BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT SHE GIVES, 100%. 

This is her "give back" in the world:  FUN ON A STRING PUPPETS & MARIONETTES This is PENNY, this is what she does, for children, and they need her.  Chris needs her, I need her, does God need her more?  I don't understand. 

 

 

24 comments:

Anonymous said...

My prayers go out to Penny and your family for her healing, for comfort, and renewed strength.  Who has answers to such questions, not me.  But pray I will.  God Bless.

Anonymous said...

Oh ... so very sorry to hear this news.  Her web site shows a happy, fun loving woman who enjoys life and what she does.  Prayers, prayers and more prayers her way.  None of us understand.

Anonymous said...

Prayers going up for Penny. May God heal her body and give her renewed strength along with her family. Helen

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. She looks like such a nice person. Will keep her in my prayers.
Pam

Anonymous said...

Cathy,
Life can be such a cruel beast, but even so, it can be tamed with the voice of people through their inter cessionary  prayers. Naturally, you can count that Penny will have mine until she is well and into recession, a rock to Chris as he is to you.
We all need each other in such times, and I know you know a man that will be able to take all your pain, so please let go and let Him. God bless you all and my prayers are with you. Let His will be done.

Anonymous said...

Cathy,
I am very upset for you, Christopher and most of all Penny. Had a look at her website a minute ago, and she does a great job with the marionettes. There is rhyme nor reason to who gets struck with cancer, and that is little if any consolation.
Penny is lucky to have a great man by her side, that I am sure your brother is, and your good self. We are all here in J-land for you as well.

Guido

Anonymous said...

Dear Cathy...Guido has sent me over to offer you my prayers for your darling  sister-in-law Penny. My prayers are being said for you all each evening.  God bles her and keep her safe.
Jeanie

Anonymous said...

I have come via Guido to show my support at this dreadful time. My thoughts and prayers are with Penny and her loving family.
Love and hugs
Katie

Anonymous said...

Letting you know that I have Penny in my prayers. May God in His mercy, bless her & family. If you need support or prayer, please know I am here...anytime.
Blessings,
Sugar
Oh, Guido asked me to come. :)

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Anonymous said...

This is terrible news....I only hope and pray that there is a miraculous intervention here and the big bad casino fails to keep his home in Penny.

Anonymous said...

oh Cathy, this is terrible. Why do these things happen to nice people. My thoughts are with dear Penny and I am sending you a hug.
(( ))

Anonymous said...

Oh hon, I am so very sorry. This is just terrible. I will put her on my prayer list immediately, and ask others to do the same. Cancer is such a horrible thing. It took several from our family too. Keep the faith hon. Prayer is on the way.
Big hugs,
Barb-http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/LETTERSTOHEAVEN
     

Anonymous said...

many prayers to penny you and your family

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry thinking of your family and Penny.
Take care, Chrissie

Anonymous said...

{{{Cath}}} I am so sorry to hear this.  I wish I could give you the answers, but I don't understand either.  I will send prayers and good thoughts... love and strength.  We're here for you....... give Penny a hug for me.  I will light another candle..
love ya
d

Anonymous said...

Cathy.....I am saying a prayer for your family.  So sorry to hear this is happening.
Hugs,
Gina

Anonymous said...

My Dear Cathy,
It is never a matter of who needs who the most - it is all about God and His plans for Penny's life path, which she chose before her birth.  With cancer, you can lend your loving support and pray for God's Will.  We always want the best outcome - this is what we pray for - the red wagon, the wonderful new car we saw in the showroom window - complete healing - a bigger home - winning the lotto - we all want what we feel will enhance our lives and be the very answer we have been waiting for.  But God may have other plans for us - and they may not include our heart's desire (or what we THINK is our heart's desire)!!  And we WILL get answers - just not always the ones we had hoped or prayed for, but we get the answers that are always in our best interests according to God's plan.
The best you can do is to lift Penny up to God's loving and healing arms and leave Penny's journey up to HIM.  He knows best - even though we have our doubts at times because the answers we prayed for did not come in the form we wished for. But always know that whatever happens, it is for Penny's purest good.  It is important for you and Chris to stay strong and send POSITIVE thoughts and prayers to her, knowing all along that God will send her the best outcome for her greatest good.
I will be praying for Penny too - I promised you that.  I trust her into God's healing power and presence, knowing that this is the best place she can be.  Her journey is only shared between her and God - they, alone, will travel together to find the perfect outcome.  Penny just needs to be still and seek God, with faith believing, for the strength and courage and power she needs to see her journey through to the other side.  
God bless you, Cathy and Chris - and God bless Penny as she begins her journey for perfect healtj according to God's Will.
I love you,
Gemmy

Anonymous said...

So sorry to hear about this.  Gerry  http://journals.aol.com/gehi6/daughters-of-the-shadow-men/  

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with Penny for comfort and complete remission!!  My prayers are with the family for strength and comfort!!

Joann

Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry to hear about your sister-in-law.   My thoughts are with you and your family.
Lori

Anonymous said...

Sending prayers for you... for Penny.

be well,
Dawn
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Anonymous said...

saying prayers for you and the famliy.

Anonymous said...

Sending thoughts and prayers...
Gem

Anonymous said...

Oh Cathy, I am just making it over to your journal.  I didn't realize this was going on with your sister-in-law.  I am so sorry.  Please know that God does have everything under control in your sister-in-law's life.  He has a plan for her life.  Whether she be healed on earth or in Heaven, some day she will be healed.  That may not be what you wanted to hear right now.  But I believe this time will be a real time of healing and growth for her spiritually.  And remember her salvation is the most important thing.  I am not saying this lightly.  I am saying this from one who knows, because John went through it.  Even though it has been a horrendous ordeal, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone, his cancer has brought out tremendous blessings in his/our lives.  We have grown spiritually, etc.  Cathy, at the same time, wishing for her to be cancerfree is a very good thing.  Of course.  And for her to be very positive is tremendously important.  Please remember that I will be praying for her and her husband.  And for you.  Email me if you need anything.

Krissy  http://journals.aol.com/fisherkristina/SometimesIThink