Monday, November 19, 2007

"Self-Pity Needs To Vent"

                                I'd like to have a day of joy

                               without the debt to pay for it -

                                   A motivation to go on,

                              without having to pray for it.

Still, I've had my laughing days,

and all of them realistic -

a favorite joy? at stars I'd gaze

each single glow magestic.

                          I've loved a many, loved them well,

                                  they tried to lift my heart -

                       Like angels they would round me dwell

                                  And still I'd feel apart,

The joy in life, I tried to find,

but only put on airs,

My father brought me peace of mind -

my mother taught me prayers.

                         Though some are born to melancholy,

                                 quite at home with grief,

                                I always felt I'd fall away

                                just like a loosened leaf.

It's not a story sad to tell

for I made a-many glad,

whether music, art, or poetry

I gave the gifts I had.

                             But this is just a Pity-Poem,

                              it needs its venting, too -

                     and though my state of mind will change, 

                             I share it now with you !

                      Catherine S. Rapicano - June 4, 2006                                                                                                       

  

18 comments:

ma24179 said...

I can realy relate wit your poem Luddie..Have a great weekend. -Missy

lanurseprn said...

Oh boy I can totally relate to this sometimes. I'm sending you a hug!!
Pam

pharmolo said...

Liked the poems, Cathy. Hope you'll have a good Thanksgiving.

treesrgreen78 said...

This poem absolutely echos my feelings of the last week or so, I totally relate to what you saying.  Just to let you know your entries and your poems help to provide me with knowledge I would never ordnarily gain and your poems always touch me deeply especially the Gardener.  God bless Luddie, I am here for you always.

princesssaurora said...

I relate to what you wrote... seems when I have joy I have to pay  for it too.

be well,
Dawn
http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

bhbner2him said...

I suppose we all give in to a pity party from time to time.....some just more often than others.  Once when I was deep in a poor me who no one in this house appreciates funk, I felt the Lord tell me it's that I do it well that they can take me forgranted.  That He sees and knows.  To remember I am actually doing it all for Him.    -  Barbara

kirkbyj05 said...

Wonderful poem!    I shared your mind in this poem and hope that your spirits lift soon my friend.  I try not to let melancholy enter my life but sometimes it visits and you describe it so well.
Jeanie xxx

fisherkristina said...

Uhm, that's sad.

Krissy
http://journals.aol.com/fisherkristina/SometimesIThink

jeanno43 said...

I can relate to that

http://journals.aol.co.uk/jeanno43/JeannettesJottings/

rdautumnsage said...

Without pain you wouldn't know enough to embrace joy, without sorrow, we wouldn't know the depth of love. For everything there is a balance. Your in my thoughts. (Hugs) Indigo

sassydee50 said...

Cathy~Had to read this one a few times...My Grandma always said I was "melancholy", which I'm sure you can distinguish as well as I can from deep depression. Melancholy I can handle! Very well written! You surely do have your gifts and I'm glad you share one of them here in JLand. I'd love to hear some piano music with it~special order please? ;-) Deb

wwfbison said...

This is a lovely poem, I can relate to much of it, especially the third verse.  Melancholy is a word I use quite frequently to describe my mood as well.  Very nice.
Lisa
http://journals.aol.com/wwfbison/life-on-a-bison-farm

rockoned7 said...

So typical of the person I have grown to know over the last year or so. Everyone gets melancholic once in a while "so let it pass be on it's way and dont be sad another day". Liked this CR and so true of you. Have a happier day tomorrow. ED

xxroxymamaxx said...

I love this!! Happy Thanksgiving!! Love, Shelly

astoriasand said...

Thanx for sharing .I can relate very much to much of this.I hope you have  ahd a wonderful Thanksgiving,sorry for the late comment..Take Care God Bless Kath
astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

gazker said...

Beautifull! Gaz x

jmorancoyle said...

     Love this one, too.
Jude
http://journals.aol.com/jmorancoyle/MyWay

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