Saturday, February 21, 2009

Sleep Eludes The Elusive

I haven't slept in about 50 hours (shhh-that's a secret) but I think if I could just find the nerve to stop being secretive (read silent) with a family member I love, and just tell them how they pained me long ago, maybe the magic soothing grace of sleep will return.

Do things like this happen to you? It feels so...

If you have an extra prayer, I'll gratefully accept.

13 comments:

Lynne said...

I do not think it is normal to go 50 hours without rest, but I think you already know the answer to that one.

I will pray that you will find peace and resolution with this family member. I have had situations where I've been terribly hurt. Sometimes, I will write a letter and stick it in an envelope. It is within my power to mail or not mail it. I have and I haven't, it just depended on the situation.

Blessings to you!

Herrad said...

Hello Cathy,


Difficult to sleep when there are things that have not been resolved.

Difficult to give oneself a break.

One way or another you need to remove the roadblock in your way.

Hope you suceed and you can sleep tonight.

Take care.

Love,
Herrad

kelly said...

I would have to agree with Lynne, do write a letter, get everything out.. even if you don't send it. you'll find peace within knowing that you let it all out.. I too pray that you will find peace within..Life is too short to hold grudges.. I hope you can find time to rest..
Kelly~

cw2smom said...

Personally, I waiver back and forth between NOT sleeping and sleeping way too much when having issues affecting my life and mental well-being. However, I'd say that 50 hours without sleep is NOT good and perhaps you may need to seek medical help. I am sending you a prayer right now and thoughts that this is all resolved very soon! Blessings, peace and love, Lisa

Frequent Traveler said...

Cathy,
That's total nervous breakdown time, 4 days without sleep !

Very important for you to talk in detail with the family member you love and get everything out.

i pray it is received well, and honestly, and genuine amends are made.

Do it though just to get it off your chest. know that there are people who unfortunately care more about defending their actions or denying what happened than they do about admitting the truth or apologizing with real understanding of the impact it had.

Barbara In Caneyhead said...

Yes, there have been times in my life when I have obsessed over a situation, worrying, playing out pretend conversations in my head. Stating my case over and over to me. And gone without sleep a night or two because of it.

But I have never kept myself up over something that occured in the past...which it sounds like that is what you are talking about.

Somewhere along the way, by God's grace, I learned to pray and truly give it over to the Lord, at least for the night. I still sometimes pick it up again the next day...but not very often.

My best suggestion is to pray for God's wisdom and will in the matter. Pray for the person who wronged you. It may start out more as a rant, but the more you pray for them, the more you'll see your attitude change. Take action only if you feel clear leadership to do so.

Sage Ravenwood said...

Your in my prayers on the smoke dear friend. Life keeps me awake at night quite often. (Hugs)Indigo

Diane J Standiford said...

I'm not good at keeping things in. I certainly have an extra prayer for you.

Amelia said...

Just don't hold any grudges against that family member. I learned my lesson when my sister died. Look over things and remember we are human if at all possible. Take you something and get you some rest my friend. I don't want you to feel like this.

Love you.

ADB said...

Fifty hours without sleep? That isn't healthy, Cathy. Try to get some soon, and divert your thoughts if poss.

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sarah said...

I'll happily say a prayer for you. Have you slept yet? My hubby has the same problem sleeping. I know what you mean when something is left unresolved. I usually write a few letters, beginning from angry until they get calm and promise myself that when the opportunity arises I will speak to them about it. Often I find that people aren't even aware of it. I also find strangely that once I allow myself to bring it up I stop worrying about it. I don't know if this helps but I really hope you work things out.)

Maire said...

Resolution to what is weighing on your mind, in whatever way is comfortable for you, may be what you need...but first, I'm probably answering this backwards, because I havent read the next post. The more you don't sleep, the more it weighs upon you, your brain needs a rest.